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Given Up

wake in a sweat again
another day's been laid to waste
in my disgrace
stuck in my head again
feels like i'll never leave this place
there's no escape
i'm my own worst enemy

i've given up
i'm sick of living
is there nothing you can say
take this all away
i'm suffocating
tell me what the fuck is wrong with me

i don't know what to take
thought i was focused but i'm scared
i'm not prepared
i hyperventilate
looking for help somehow somewhere
and you don't care
put me out of my misery

Leave Out All The Rest

i dreamed i was missing
you were so scared
but no one would listen
cause no one else cared
after my dreaming
i woke with this fear
what am i leaving
when i'm done here
so if you're asking me i want you to know

when my time comes
forget the wrong that i've done
help me leave behind some
reasons to be missed
don't resent me
and when you're feeling empty
keep me in your memory
leave out all the rest
leave out all the rest

don't be afraid
i've taken my beating
i've shared what i made
i'm strong on the surface
not all the way through
i've never been perfect
but neither have you
so if you're asking me i want you to know

forgetting / all the hurt inside you learned to hide so well
pretending / someone else can come and save me from myself
i can't be who you are

Bleed It Out

here we go for the hundredth time
hand grenade pins in every line
throw 'em up and let something shine
going out of my fuckin mind
filthy mouth / no excuse
find a new place to hang this noose
string me up from atop these roofs
knot it tight so i won't get loose
truth is / you can stop and stare
bled myself out and no one cares
dug the trench out / laid down there
with a shovel up out of reach somewhere
yeah / someone pour it in
make it a dirt dance floor again
say your prayers and stomp it out
when they bring that chorus in
i bleed it out
digging deeper just to throw it away
just to throw it away
i bleed it out

i bleed it out / go / stop the show
choppy words and a sloppy flow
shotgun opera / lock and load
cock it back and then watch it go
mama help me / i've been cursed
death is rolling in every verse
candy paint on his brand new hearse
can't contain him / he knows he works
fuck this hurts / i won't lie / doesn't matter how
hard i try
half the words don't mean a thing and i know i
won't be satisfied
so why try ignoring him
make it a dirt dance floor again
say your prayers and stomp it out
when they bring that chorus in

i open up these scars
i'll make you face this i pull myself apart
i'll make you face this
i open up these scars
i'll make you face this now

Shadow of the Day

i close both locks below the window
i close both blinds and turn away
sometimes solutions aren't so simple
sometimes goodbye's the only way

and the sun will set for you
the sun will set for you
and the shadow of the day
will embrace the world in grey
and the sun will set for you

in cards and flowers on your window
your friends all plead for you to stay
sometimes beginnings aren't so simple
sometimes goodbye's the only way

and the shadow after day
will embrace the world in grey
and the sun will set for you

What I've Done

in this farewell
there's no blood
there's no alibi
cause i've drawn regret
from the truth
of a thousand lies

so let mercy come
and wash away

what i've done
i'll face myself
to cross out what i've become
erase myself
and let go of what i've done

put to rest
what you thought of me
while i've cleaned this slate
with the hands
of uncertainty

for what i've done
i start again
and whatever pain may come
today this ends
i'm forgiving what i've done

Hands Held High

turn my
mic up louder i got to say something
lightweights step it aside when we come in
feel it in your chest / the syllables get pumping
people on the street they panic and start running
words on loose leaf sheet complete coming
i jump in my mind and summon the rhyme i'm dumping
healing the blind i promise to let the sun in
sick of the dark ways we march to the drum and
jump when they tell us that they wanna see jumping
fuck that / i wanna see some fists pumping
risk something / take back what's yours
say something that you know they might attack you for
cause i'm sick of being treated like i have before
like it's stupid standing for what i'm standing for
like this war's really just a different brand of war
like it doesn't cater to rich and abandon poor
like they understand you in the back of the jet / when you
can't put gas in your tank / and these fuckers are
laughing their way to the bank / cashing the check
asking you to have compassion / have respect
for a leader so nervous in an obvious way
stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay
and the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
in their living room laughing like
what did he say

in my living room watching / i am not laughing / cause
when it gets tense i know what might happen
the world is cold / the bold men make action
have to react or get blown into fractions
ten years old / it's something to see / another
kid my age drug under a jeep
taken and bound / and found later under a tree
i wonder if he had thought the next one could be me
do you see / the soldiers / they're out today they
brush the dust from bulletproof vests away
it's ironic / at times like this you pray
but a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday
there's bombs on the busses / bikes / roads
inside your market / your shops / your clothes / my dad
he's got a lot of fear i know
but enough pride inside not to let that show
my brother had a book he would hold with pride
a little red cover with a broken spine
on the back / he hand wrote a quote inside:
'when the rich wage war it's the poor who die'
and meanwhile / the leader just talks away
stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay
the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
both scared and angry like
what did he say
with hands held high into a sky so blue
as the ocean opens up to swallow you

No More Sorrow

are you lost / in your lies
do you tell yourself i don't realize
your campaign's a disguise
replaced freedom with fear / you trade money for lives
i'm aware of what you've done

no / no more sorrow
i've paid for your mistakes
your / time is borrowed
your time has come to be replaced

i see pain / i see need
i see liars and thieves abuse power with greed
i had hope / i believed
but i'm beginning to think that i've been deceived
you will pay for what you've done

thieves and hypocrites

no / no more sorrow
i've paid for your mistakes
your / time is borrowed
your time has come to be replaced
your time has come to be erased

Valentine's Day

my insides all turned to ash / so slow
and blew away as i collapsed / so cold
a black wind took them away / from sight
and held the darkness over day / that night

and the clouds above move closer
looking so dissatisfied
but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

i used to be my own protection / but not now
cause my path had lost direction / somehow
a black wind took you away / from sight
and held the darkness over day / that night

and the clouds above move closer
looking so dissatisfied
and the ground below grew colder
as they put you down inside
but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

so now you're gone
and i was wrong
i never knew what it was like
to be alone
on a valentine's day

In Between

let me apologize to begin with
let me apologize for what i'm about to say
but trying to be genuine
was harder than it seemed
and somehow i got caught up in between

let me apologize to begin with
let me apologize for what i'm about to say
but trying to be someone else
was harder than it seemed
and somehow i got caught up in between

between my pride and my promise
between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
the things i want to say to you
get lost before they come
the only thing that's worse than one is none

let me apologize to begin with
let me apologize for what i'm about to say
but trying to regain your trust
was harder than it seemed
and somehow i got caught up in between

and i cannot explain to you
in anything i say or do or plan
fear is not afraid of you
but guilt's a language you can understand
i cannot explain to you
in anything i say or do
but hope the actions speak the words they can

for my pride and my promise
for my lies and how the truth gets in the way
the things i want to say to you
get lost before they come
the only thing that's worse than one is none

In Pieces

telling me to go
but hands beg me to stay
your lips say that you love
your eyes say that you hate

there's truth in your lies
doubt in your faith
what you build you lay to waste
there's truth in your lies
doubt in your faith
all i've got's what you didn't take

so i / i wont be the one
be the one to leave this
in pieces
and you / you will be alone
alone with all your secrets
your regrets
don't lie

you promise me the sky
then toss me like a stone
you wrap me in your arms
and chill me to the bone

there's truth in your lies
and doubt in your faith
what you build you lay to waste
there's truth in your lies
and doubt in your faith
all i've got's what you didn't take

so i / i wont be the one
be the one to leave this
in pieces
and you / you will be alone
alone with all your secrets
your regrets
don't lie

The Little Things Give You Away

water grey
through the windows
up the stairs
chilling rain
like an ocean
everywhere

don't want to reach for me do you
i mean nothing to you
the little things give you away
and now there will be no mistaking
the levees are breaking

all you've ever wanted
was someone to truly look up to you
and six feet / underwater
i do

hope decays
generations disappear
washed away
as a nation simply stares

all you've ever wanted
was someone to truly look up to you
and six feet / underwater
i do
all you've ever wanted
was someone to truly look up to you
and six feet / underground now
i do

No Roads Left

standing alone with no direction
how did I fall so far behind?
why Am I searching for perfection?
Knowing it's something I won't find

in my fear and flaws
i let myself down again
all because

i run
till the silence splits me open
i run
till it puts me underground
till I have no breath
and no roads left but one

when did I lose my sense of purpose?
can I regain what's lost inside?
why do I feel like I deserve this?
why does my pain look like my pride?

in my fear and flaws
i let myself down again
all because
i let myself down
in my fear and flaws

i run
till the silence splits me open
i run
till it puts me underground
till I have no breath
and no roads left but one
no roads left but one

in my fear and flaws
i let myself down again
all because

i run
and the silence splits me open
i run
and it puts me underground
but there's no regret
and no roads left to run

Don't Stay

Sometimes I
Need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I
Need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I’m
In disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I
Need you to go

Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
[Just give me myself back and]
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
[Just give me myself back and]
Don’t stay

Sometimes I
Feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I
Just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I’m
In disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I
Need to be alone

Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
[Just give me myself back and]
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
[Just give me myself back and]
Don’t stay

I don’t need you anymore
I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day
Of you wasting me away

I don’t need you anymore
I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day
Of you wasting me away
With no apologies

Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
[Just give me myself back and]
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
[Just give me myself back and]
Don’t stay
Don’t stay
Don’t stay

Somewhere I Belong

When this began
I had nothing to say
And I’d get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I let it all out to find /that I’m
Not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck/hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own

I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I’ve held so long
[Erase all the pain ’til it’s gone]
I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I’m close to something real
I want to find something i’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everywhere/only to find that it’s
Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the
Way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain/hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
The fault is my own

I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I’ve held so long
[Erase all the pain ’til it’s gone]
I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I’m close to something real
I want to find something i’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything ’til I break away from me
And I will break away
I’ll find myself today

I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I’ve held so long
[Erase all the pain ’til it’s gone]
I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I’m close to something real
I want to find something i’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I want to heal
I want to feel like I’m
Somewhere i belong
I want to heal
I want to feel like I’m
Somewhere i belong
Somewhere i belong

Lying Form You

When I pretend
Everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you had always
Wanted to see
When I pretend
I can forget about the criminal I am
Stealing second after second just ’cause
I know I can/But
I can’t pretend this is the way
It will stay/I’m just
Trying to bend the truth
I can’t pretend I’m who you want me to be
So I’m

Lying my way from you

[No/no turning back now]
I wanna be pushed aside
So let me go
[No/no turning back now]
Let me take back my life
I’d rather be all alone
[No turning back now]
Anywhere on my own
’Cause I can see
[No/no turning back now]
The very worst part of you
Is me

I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk
Of who I ought to be
Remember listening to all of that
And this again
So I pretended up a person who was fitting in
And now you think this person
Really is me and I’m
[Trying to bend the truth]
But the more I push
The more I’m pulling away
’Cause I’m

Lying my way from you

[No/no turning back now]
I wanna be pushed aside
So let me go
[No/no turning back now]
Let me take back my life
I’d rather be all alone
[No turning back now]
Anywhere on my own
’Cause I can see
[No/no turning back now]
The very worst part of you
The very worst part of you
Is me

This isn’t what I wanted to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me
Like this

This isn’t what I wanted to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me
Like this

This isn’t what I wanted to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me
Like this

This isn’t what I wanted to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me
Like this

[No/no turning back now]
I wanna be pushed aside
So let me go
[No/no turning back now]
Let me take back my life
I’d rather be all alone
[No turning back now]
Anywhere on my own
’Cause I can see
[No/no turning back now]
The very worst part of you
The very worst part of you
Is me

Hit The Floor

There are just too many
Times that people
Have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you
And I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I’ve
Held on when I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind
Afraid to say what I need to say
Too many
Things that you’ve said about me
When I’m not around
You think having the upper hand
Means you’ve got to keep putting me down
But I’ve had too many stand-offs with you
It’s about as much as I can stand
So I’m waiting until the upper hand
Is mine

One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not
Watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not
Missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you won

And then it’s all gone

So many people like me
Put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned with what you think
To just say what we feel inside
So many people like me
Walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want
Is to feel like I’m not stepped on
There are so many things you say
That make me feel like you’ve crossed the line
What goes up will surely fall
And I’m counting down the time
’Cause I’ve had so many stand-offs with you
It’s about as much as I can stand
So I’m waiting until the upper hand
Is mine

One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not
Watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not
Missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you won

And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
Now it’s all gone

I know I’ll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us
But you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating
Up above us all
But what goes up has got to fall

One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not
Watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you’re on top
The next you’re not
Missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you won

And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
Now it’s all gone

Easier To Run

It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret I’ve kept locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they’ve played

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I
would

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I didn’t have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never be a past

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I
would

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don’t feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change

It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

It’s easier to run
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made
It’s easier to go
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

Faint

I am
A little bit of loneliness
A little bit of disregard
A handful of complaints
But I can’t help the fact
That everyone can see these scars
I am
What I want you to want
What I want you to feel
But it’s like
No matter what I do
I can’t convince you
To just believe this is real
So I let go
Watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I’m not
But I’ll be here
’Cause you’re all that I got

I can’t feel
The way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal
This damage anymore
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored

I am
A little bit insecure
A little unconfident
’Cause you don’t understand
I do what I can
But sometimes I don’t make sense
I am
What you never want to say
But I’ve never had a doubt
It’s like no matter what I do
I can’t convince you
For once just to hear me out
So I let go
Watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I’m not
But I’ll be here
’Cause you’re all that I got

I can’t feel
The way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal
This damage anymore
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored

No
Hear me out now
You’re gonna listen to me
Like it or not
Right now
Hear me out now
You’re gonna listen to me
Like it or not
Right now

I can’t feel
The way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored
I can’t feel
The way I did before
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal
This damage anymore
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored

I can’t feel
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored
Time won’t heal
Don’t turn your back on me
I won’t be ignored

Figure.09

Nothing ever stops all these thoughts
And the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happening
It’s like nothing I can do
Will distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
’Cause from the infinite words I could say/I
Put all the pain you gave to me on
Display/But didn’t
Realize/Instead of setting it free/I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

[It never goes away] never goes away

And now
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be right here
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be my fear
I can’t separate myself from
What I’ve done
Giving up a part of me
I’ve let myself become you

Hearing your name/the memories
Come back again
I remember when it started happening
I’d see you in every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words
Attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away I was
Committing myself to them/and every day I
Regret saying those things/’cause now
I see/that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

[It never goes away] never goes away

And now
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be right here
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be my fear
I can’t separate myself from
What I’ve done
Giving up a part of me
I’ve let myself become you

[It never goes away]
Never goes away, never goes away
Never goes away

Get away from
Me
Gimme my space back/you gotta just
Go
Everything comes down to memories of
You
I’ve kept it in but now I’m letting you
Know
I’ve let you go
So get away from me
Gimme my space back/you gotta just
Go
Everything comes down to memories of
You
I’ve kept it in but now I’m letting you
Know
I’ve let you go, go..
And now
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be right here
You’ve become a part of me
You’ll always be my fear
I can’t separate myself from
What I’ve done
Giving up a part of me
I’ve let myself become you

I’ve let myself become you
I’ve let myself become lost inside these
Thoughts of you
Giving up a part of me
I’ve let myself become you

Breaking The Habit

Memories consume Like opening the wound
I’m picking me apart again
You all assume
I’m safe here in my room
[Unless I try to start again]

I don’t want to be the one
The battles always choose
’Cause inside I realize
That I’m the one confused

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don’t know why I instigate
And say what I don’t mean
I don’t know how I got this way
I know it’s not alright
So I’m
Breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I don’t want to be the one
The battles always choose
’Cause inside I realize
That I’m the one confused

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don’t know why I instigate
And say what I don’t mean
I don’t know how I got this way
I’ll never be alright
So I’m
Breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
Tonight

I’ll paint it on the walls
’Cause I’m the one at fault
I’ll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don’t know how I got this way
I’ll never be alright
So I’m
Breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
Tonight

From The Inside

I don’t know who to trust
No surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts sift through dust
And the lies

Trying not to break
But I’m so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how
Trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me

I take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
’Cause I swear/for the last time
I won’t trust myself with you

Tension is building inside
Steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts forcing their way
Out of me

Trying not to break
But I’m so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how
Trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me

I take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
’Cause I swear/for the last time
I won’t trust myself with you
I won’t waste myself on you, you, you
Waste myself on you, you, you

I’ll take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
’Cause I swear/for the last time
I won’t trust myself with you
Everything from the inside
And just throw it all away
’Cause I swear/for the last time
I won’t trust myself with you, you, you

Nobody's Listening

Coming at ya..

Yo peep the style and the kids checking for it
The number one question is
How could you ignore it
We drop right back in the cut
Over basement tracks
With raps that got you backing this up like
[Rewind That]
We’re just rolling with the rhythm
Rise from the ashes of stylistic division
With these non-stop lyrics of life living
Not to be forgotten
But still unforgiven
But in the meantime there are those who wanna
Talk this and that/so I suppose that
It gets to a point where feelings gotta get hurt
And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt
[It goes]

Try to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody’s listening
Call to you so clearly
But you don’t want to hear me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody’s listening

I got a
Heart full of pain/head full of stress
Handful of anger/held in my chest
And everything left is a waste of time
I hate my rhymes
[But hate everyone else’s more]
I’m riding on the back of this pressure
Guessing that it’s better
I can’t keep myself together
Because of all this stress
Gave me something to write on
The pain gave me something
I could set my sights on
You never forget the blood sweat and tears
The uphill struggle over years
The fear and trash talking
And the people it was to
And the people that started it
Just like you

Try to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody’s listening
Call to you so clearly
But you don’t want to hear me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody’s listening

I got a
Heart full of pain/head full of stress
Handful of anger/held in my chest
Uphill struggle/blood, sweat and tears
Nothing to gain/everything to fear

Heart full of pain/head full of stress
Handful of anger/held in my chest
Uphill struggle/blood, sweat and tears
Nothing to gain/everything to fear
Heart full of pain..

Try to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody’s listening
Call to you so clearly
But you don’t want to hear me
[Told you everything loud and clear]
But nobody’s listening

I’ve got Heart full of pain
Head full of stress
Nobody’s listening
Handful of anger
Held in my chest
Nobody’s listening
Uphill struggle
Blood, sweat and tears
Nobody’s listening
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear
Nobody’s listening

[Coming at you]

Numb

I’m tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface
I don’t know what you’re expecting of me
Put under the pressure
Of walking in your shoes

[Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you

[Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow]

I’ve
Become so numb
I can’t feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I’m becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

Can’t you see that you’re smothering me
Holding too tightly
Afraid to lose control
’Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you

[Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you
[Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow]
And every second I waste
Is more then I can take

I’ve
Become so numb
I can’t feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I’m becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

I’ve
Become so numb
I can’t feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I’m becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

I’ve
Become so numb
I can’t feel you there
Tired of being what you want me to be
I’ve
Become so numb
I can’t feel you there
Tired of being what you want me to be

Papercut

Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here’s not right today.
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia’s all I got left
I don’t know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed
But I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
It’s like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(And watches everything)
So I know that when it’s time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me
Right underneath my skin

It’s like I’m paranoid lookin’ over my back
It’s like a whirlwind inside of my head
It’s like I can’t stop what I’m hearing within
It’s like the face inside is right beneath my skin

I know I’ve got a face in me
Points out all my mistakes to me
You’ve got a face on the inside too and
Your paranoia’s probably worse
I don’t know what set me off first but I know what I can’t stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I can’t add up to what you can but
Everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time they lie
A face that laughs every time they fall
(And watches everything)
So you know that when it’s time to sink or swim
That the face inside is watching you too
Right inside your skin

Chorus (2x)

The face inside is right beneath your skin (3x)

The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me (Repeat until end)

Chorus (Repeat until end)

One Step Closer

I cannot take this anymore
I’m saying everything I’ve said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you’ll say
But you’ll find that out anyway
Just like before…

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I’m one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break

I find the answers aren’t so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before…

Chorus (2x)

shut up when I’m talking to you

Chorus (2x)

With You

I woke up in a dream today
To the cold of the static and put my cold feet on the floor
Forgot all about yesterday
Remembering IТm pretending to be where IТm not anymore
A little taste of hypocrisy
And IТm left in the wake of the mistake slow to react
Even though youТre so close to me
YouТre still so distant And I canТt bring you back

ItТs true the way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if youТre not with me
IТm with you
You Now I see keeping everything inside
(With you)
You Now I see Even when I close my eyes

I hit you and you hit me back
We fall to the floor the rest of the day stands still
Fine line between this and that
When things go wrong I pretend the past isnТt real
Now I’m trapped in this memory
And IТm left in the wake of the mistake slow to react
So even though youТre close to me
YouТre still so distant And I canТt bring you back

Chorus

No matter how far we’ve come
I can’t wait to see tomorrow (2x)

With you
You Now I see keeping everything inside
With you
You Now I see Even when I close my eyes (2x)

Points of Authority

Forfeit the game Before somebody else
Takes you out of the frame Puts your name to shame
Cover up your face You canТt run the race
The pace is too fast You just won’t last

You love the way I look at you
While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through
You take away if I give in
My life
My pride is broken

You like to think youТre never wrong
You have to act like youТre someone
You want someone to hurt like you
You want to share what youТve been through

You love the things I say IТll do-
The way IТll hurt myself again just to get back at you
You take away when I give in
My life
My pride is broken

You like to think youТre never wrong
You have to act like youТre someone
You want someone to hurt like you
You want to share what youТve been through
(You live what you learn)

Forfeit the game Before somebody else
Takes you out of the frame Puts your name to shame
Cover up your face You canТt run the race
The pace is too fast You just won’t last (2x)

You like to think youТre never wrong
You have to act like youТre someone
You want someone to hurt like you
You want to share what youТve been through (2x)

Crawling

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

ThereТs something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling I canТt seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence IТm convinced
there’s just too much pressure to take]
IТve felt this way before
So insecure

Chorus

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
ItТs haunting how I canТt seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence IТm convinced
there’s just too much pressure to take]
IТve felt this way before
So insecure…

Chorus (repeat until end)

ThereТs something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling (whispered during chorus)

Runaway

Graffiti decorations
Underneath a sky of dust
A constant wave of tension
On top of broken trust
The lessons that you taught me
I learn were never true
Now I find myself in question
They point the finger at me again
Guilty by association
You point the finger at me again

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

Paper bags and angry voices
Under a sky of dust
Another wave of tension
Has more than filled me up
All my talk of taking action
These words were never true
Now I find myself in question
They point the finger at me again
Guilty by association
You point the finger at me again

Chorus

I Gonna run away and never say goodbye
(Gonna run away… Gonna run away…)
(Gonna run away… Gonna run away…)

I Gonna run away and never wonder why
(Gonna run away… Gonna run away…)
(Gonna run away… Gonna run away…)

I Gonna run away and open up my mind
(Gonna run away… Gonna run away…)
(Gonna run away… Gonna run away…)
(Gonna run away… Gonna run away…)
(Gonna run away… Gonna run away…)

By Myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them redhanded?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can’t hold on when I’m stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I’m lost within
I put on my daily fasade but then
I just end up getting hurt again

By myself (myself)
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on (myself)
I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they’ll
Take from me ’till everything is gone
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer by myself (myself)

Chorus

How do you think I’ve lost so much
I’m so afraid I’m out of touch
How do you expect I will know what to do
When all I know Is what you tell me to

Don’t you (know)
I can’t tell you how to make it (go)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I can’t seem to convince myself (why)
I’m stuck on the outside (2x)

I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in (2x)

In The End

It starts with one thing
I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme, to remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me (in the end)
You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

Chorus

I’ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know (2x)

Chorus

A Place For My Head

I watch how the moon sits in the sky
On a dark night shining with the light from the sun
The sun doesn’t give light to the moon
Assuming the moon’s going to owe it one
It makes me think of how you act to me
You do favors and then rapidly
You just turn around and start asking me about
Things you want back from me

Pre chorus:
I’m sick of the tension, sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place to feed your greed
While I find a place to rest

Chorus:
I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don’t understand
(You’ll see it’s not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head

Maybe someday I’ll be just like you, and
Step on people like you do and
Run away the people I thought I knew
I remember back then who you were
You used to be calm, used to be strong
Used to be generous, but you should’ve known
That you’d wear out your welcome
Now you see how quiet it is, all alone

Chorus

You try to take the best of me
Go away (8x)

Chorus

Pre chorus (2x)

Forgotten

From the top to the bottom
Bottom to top I stop
At the core I’ve forgotten
In the middle of my thoughts

Taken far from my safety
The picture is there
The memory won’t escape me
But why should I care (2x)

There’s a place so dark you can’t see the end
(Skies cock back) and shock that which can’t defend
The rain then sends dripping acidic questions
Forcefully, the power of suggestion
Then with the eyes tightly shut looking thought the rust and rotten dust
A spot of light floods the floor
And pours over the rusted world of pretend
The eyes ease open and its dark again

Chorus

Bridge:
In the memory you’ll find me
Eyes burning up
The darkness holding me tightly
Until the sun rises up

Moving all around
Screaming of the ups and downs
Pollution manifested in perpetual sound
The wheels go round and the sunset creeps past the
Street lamps, chain-link, and concrete
A little piece of paper with a picture drawn
Floats on down the street till the wind is gone
The memory now is like the picture was then
When the paper’s crumpled up it can’t be perfect again

Chorus (2x)

Bridge

Now you got me caught in the act
You bring the thought back
I’m telling you that
I see it right through you (7x)

Bridge (2x)

Cure For The Itch

(Unnamed announcer): Folks, we have a very special guest for you tonight.
I’d like to introduce…
Mr. Hahn!
Let’s hear it for the great Mr. Hahn!
And now a lesson in rhythm management.
Let’s begin…
Alright now, wasn’t that fun?
Let’s try something else.

Pushing Me Away

I’ve lied to you
The same way that I always do
This is the last smile
That I’ll fake for the sake of being with you

Pre chorus:
(Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(Everything has to end, you’ll soon find we’re out of time left to watch it all unwind)
The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away (2x)

I’ve tried like you
To do everything you wanted too
This is the last time
I’ll take the blame for the sake of being with you

Pre chorus

Chorus (2x)

We’re all out of time, this is how we find how it all unwinds
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
We’re all out of time, this is how we find how it all unwinds
The sacrifice is never knowing

Chorus (2x)

Pushes me away(2x)
 

Carousel

She can’t hide no matter how hard she tries
Her secret disguise behind her lies
And at night she cries away her pride
With eyes shut tight, staring at her inside
All her friends know why she can’t sleep at night
All her family asking if she’s all right
All she wants to do is get rid of this hell
But all she’s gotta do is stop kidding herself

She can only fool herself for so long (3x)
She can only fool herself

I’m too weak to face me
I never know just why you run
So far away, far away from me
I never know just why you run
So far away, far away from me

When it comes to how to live his life
He can’t be told
Says he’s got it all under control
Thinks he knows it’s not a problem he’s stuck with
But in reality, it’d be a problem to just quit
An addict and he can’t hold the reigns
The pain is worse ’cause his friends have it the same
Tries to slow down the problem he’s got
But can’t get off the carousel
Until he makes it stop

He can only fool himself for so long (3x)
He can only fool himself

Chorus

Try to fly with the wings I gave you
Try to do what you believe and I’ll save you

Chorus (4x)

Technique

You must excercise the proper technique.

Step Up

Watch as the room rocks
Mentally moonwalk
Mixed media slang
Banging in your boom box verbal violence
Lyrical stylist
In a time when rock hip hop rhymes are childish
You can? t tempt me with rhymes that are empty
Rapping to a beat doesn? t make you an emcee
With your lack of skill and facility
You? re killing me
And a DJ in the group just for credibility
I heard that some of you are getting help with your rhymes
You? re not an emcee if someone else writes your lines
And rapping over rock doesn? t make you a pioneer
Cause rock and hip hop have collaborated for years
But now they? re getting randomly mixed and matched up
All after a fast buck and all the tracks suck
So how does it stack up? None of it? s real
You want to be an emcee you? ve got to study the skill

Who can rock a rhyme like this?
Bring it to you every time like this? (2x)
Step, step up, step, step up

So you pick up a pen and write yourself a new identity
But mentally you don? t have the hip hop energy
With a tendency to make up stories
Sounding like the only hip hop you? ve heard is top 40
And your record company is completely missing it
All the kids are dissing it for not being legitimate
So in a battle you can’t hack it
React with whack shit
And get smacked with verbal back flips
Get your ass kicked by fabulous battle catalysts
It’s taken decades for emcees to establish this
You? re new to hip hop and welcome if your serious
But not on the mic
Leave that to the experienced

(Using the waves of sound the true master paralyzes his opponents, leaving him vulnerable to attack)

Chorus (2x)

(After years of pain staking research by the world’s leading sound scientists, we here at the sound institute have invented a reliable audio weapons system. Actual movement of musical sound in space used to carefully attack and neutralize the cellular structure of the human body, and the question must be asked.)

Chorus (2x)

And One

Where should I start
Disjointed heart
I’ve got no commitment
To my own flesh and blood
Left all alone
Far from my home
No one to hear me, to heal my ill heart, I
Keep it locked up inside
Cannot express
To the point I’ve regressed
If anger’s a gift, then I guess I’ve been blessed, I

Keep it locked up inside
Keep my distance from your lies

Cannot express
To the point I’ve regressed
If anger’s a gift, then I guess I’ve been blessed, I

Keep it locked up inside
Keep my distance from your lies

It’s too late to love me now
You helped me to show me
It’s too late to love me now
You don’t take a word in

Breaking a part of my heart to find release
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace
Breaking a part of my heart to find release
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace

Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Break)
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace (Me)
Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Too)
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace

Keep it locked up inside
Keep my distance from your lies

Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Break)
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace (Me)
Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Too)
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace
Breaking a part of my heart to find release
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace
Breaking a part of my heart to find release
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace

Keep my distance
Keep my distance
Keep my distance
Keep my distance

Spit drips in the jar, the witless witness
Cryptic code, realism shifts your mystic
Dark all I do embark the shadows,
Involved with my thought catalogue, analogue, rap catalogue
Keep my distance, answer your resistance, hurt by persistance,
The twisted web of tangled lies strangles my hope to waste and numbs the taste
And I’m forced to face these hate crimes against the state of being
Feeling the weightlessness pressing between the ceiling, reeling around room,
Riding a bubble of sound proof, it’s the frequency making you
Shake-shake with every boom
Involuntary muscle contraction, ignoring and drinking musical gas field euphoria
The sound counts to make the dead flush to have you a head rush with red thoughts and said stuff.

High Voltage

Just do something to tell you who I am, ya know?

It’s high voltage you can’t shake the shock
Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out (4x)

I’ve been taking into crates ever since I was livin’ in space
Before the rat-race, before monkeys had human traits
Mastered numerology and big-bang theology
Preformed lobotomies with telekinetic psychology
Invented the mic so I start blessin’ it
And chin-checkin’ kids to make my point like an impressionist
Many men have tried to shake us
But I twist mic cords to double helixes and show them what I’m made of
I buckle knees like leg braces
Cast the spell of instrumental-ness and all of the emcees that hate us
So try on, leave you without a shoulder to cry on
From now to infinity let icons be bygones
I fire bomb ghostly notes haunt this
I’ve tried threats but moved on to a promise
I stomp shit with or without an accomplish
(Mixed media)
The stamp of approval is on this

Chorus (2x)

Akira, put a kink in the backbones of clones with microphones
Never satisfy my rhyme jones
Sprayin’ bright day over what you might say
Blood type carillon
Technicolor type A
On highways with road rage I’m patient to win
The cage and the tin to bounce all around
In surround sound devouring the scene
Subliminal gangrene paintings
Overall the same things sing songs karaoke copy madness
Break bones verbally to sticks and stone tactics
Fourth dimension, combat convention
Write rhymes at ease while the tracks stand at attention (Attention)
Meant to put you away with the pencil
Pistol, official, 16 line rhyme missile
Why you risk it all, I pick out of your flaws
Spin, blah-blah-blah-blah
You can say you saw

Chorus (4x)

Chorus (4x)

Part Of Me

Part of me won’t go away
Everyday reminded how much I hate it
Weighted against the consequences
Can’t live without it so it’s senseless
Wanna cut it out of my soul
And just live with a gaping hole
Take control of my life
And wash out all the burnt taste
I made the problems in the first place
Hang my head low ’cause it’s part of me
Ya hardly see right next to the heart of me
Heard of me the routine scar
New cuts cover where the old ones are
And now I’m sick of this
I can’t stand the sandpaper thoughts that grade away on my sanity
I rather not even be then the man that’s staring in the mirror through me

Pre chorus
Cut myself free willingly
Stop just what’s killing me (4x)

I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me

It can’t be frightening if you’ve never felt it
Once it’s been dealt with you feel like you’ve been touched by something angelic
And then melted down into a pool of peace
Cease to be the animal you used to be
Remove the broken parts you know were wrong
And feel the karma when the problem’s all gone
And then you start to see another piece of yourself that you can’t let be
And that reason’ll last fight to free yourself
Take it to the depths of the bottom of the well
And now you know you can choose to lose the part in your heart
Where your insides bruise
You can live if you’re willing to
Put a stop to just what’s killing you

Pre chorus (4x)

Chorus

(Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams away silently
This part of me won’t go away, part of me won’t go away
Everywhere I look around I see how everyone aught to be
Every time I see myself I see there’s always something wrong with me)

Chorus (2x)
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside, swallowing me (2x)